The End Result


“Do not let you hearts be troubled. Trust in God, trust also in me. In my Father’s house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you, I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am.” John 14:1-3

Over the last few weeks God has really been speaking to me about living in the moment. I’ve spent far too much time wondering, asking how I should handle situations, not moments that are occurring but things that are coming. This morning I was reminded of an event many years ago. I was facing a daunting task, one I felt God wanted me to do, no, I knew he wanted me to do it but the whole thing made me very insecure. It took me literally and figuratively so far outside my comfort zone that the mere thought of it made my stomach hurt. I prayed in that time that God would reassure me that everything would work out. If I could see myself at the completion of the task, successful and intact then I could do it. Talk about a lack of faith, right?
Since that time I have asked too many times for similar assurances. Oh if I only knew the outcome! God in his enormous mercy gave me the same answer over and over. If I knew the end result then I would manipulate events on the way. If I knew exactly where I would end up, then I would head straight there and miss so many opportunities for growth. I would miss blessings and most certainly would not increase my faith. I get that. I want to be faithful more than anything but my human heart wants security. I do not want to look foolish, be humiliated, get hurt.

This morning during prayer I realized how far God has brought me. My days of asking for the end result are few and very far between. I am learning to live in the moment. I have a long way to go but I’m learning. While I was thinking about it God blessed me with the sweetest assurance of them all.

He opened my eyes to the fact that I do know the end result. I’ve known if for years upon years. Home, home with him is the end result. Granted there are many unsure, unstable situations here in this temporary home but what do they matter? The truth is I will get hurt, fail, be humiliated, look foolish and just plain miss the point. I will also have great success, be appreciated, look intelligent and appear to know what I’m doing but none of that matters. It’s just a part of the bigger, much more important journey.

Today I will go to work. It may be a good day. It may not. Someone might insult me but someone might appreciate me. I may make a bad decision but I might make someone’s day. I have no idea. What I do know is that God is with me, Emmanuel. I know that no matter what happens today or any of the days I have left here, my worst failure and my best success are dust particles compared to what is in store for me in my real home.
Today I know that I’ve had the answer I wanted all along. I wonder how many other answers God has given me that I’ve been too blind to see?

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