Terror vs. Trust
“Or
again how can anyone enter a strong man’s house and carry off his possessions
unless he first ties up the strong man? Then he can rob his house.” Matthew
12:29
Therefore, I half-listened as she
recounted the story of looming danger and how close it was coming to our own
neighborhood. My attention was divided, not at all evenly, because I am threatened
by a few things that could hit much closer to home, our actual home. As Laura
filled me in on the global danger, my mind rolled over my options in the more
personal arena. How much should I say?
What if….? How will I explain? Those questions have no clearer answers than
what to do about the greater, farther reaching, worldwide threat.
Later my husband asked me what I
thought about the situation Laura had described. (She gets her love of all
things news related from her father.) I told him that I hadn’t given it much
thought. I know God has His hand on me. If He allows disaster to come as close
as Laura fears it will, then He will either protect me in the midst of it or
take me home.
With a deep sigh and no lack of
chagrin I looked at my hubby. “Why can’t I bring that level of faith to our
personal life? To our threatening situations?” I asked him. He promptly filled
his mouth with food, a stall tactic to give me time to reach my own conclusion.
It didn’t take the length of his swallow for me to see it.
The global threats are completely out of my hands. There is
literally nothing tangible that I can do about them. I can pray and trust my
Abba. In the personal realm I live with the false belief that I have some
control over the outcome. If I say or do the right thing, if I hold my head and
mouth just right, if I…. (Fill in whatever nonsense works for you), then I
things will go the way I think they should go. Not! Even if that were true, the
way I think they should go is often not God’s will. In the big picture I am
fully submitted to His will. I need to bring that submission, that trust to the
small picture.
The day after those conversations, the
very next day, I was given several opportunities to worry, to panic and to lean
on my own understanding (Proverbs 3:5-6) but I didn’t. Instead, I took a breath
and left it all where it belongs, in God’s hands. I was even able to share my epiphany
with a couple of others. Speaking it out, declaring that I will trust God made
it easier to do just that. This morning as I write this, I am drenched in God’s
peace and joy. Has anything changed? Yes, a couple of things look a bit more
ominous. No worries, God is in the house and He knows His plan for me (Jeremiah
29:11) and for you too.
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